I am a perfectionist. I cannot tolerate messes. Well, at least I used to not be able to tolerate them. And I have a younger sister who likes to make messes and yet does not like to clean them up. I also have many younger brothers who travel around the house and will turn a clean room into a wreck. As you can imagine, I used to get pretty upset and pretty stressed out over the messes.
Now if you were me, and you were almost always stressed out, you probably would start snapping at people and maybe even yelling. I did. I would always feel terrible after I did, and I would apologize to everyone that I might have hurt, but when the next time came that I was stressed out, I would do exactly the same thing.
I felt so miserable for a while, not knowing how to control my anger. But then I began praying, and I began studying the Bible; not about anger, but about how much God loves us and how badly He wants us to have a personal relationship with Him.
So I began to pray. I prayed and asked God to forgive me for all the times that I had not controlled my anger, and I asked Him to help me overcome that anger with love. And I am so glad that I did that. When I first started praying, I did not see anything changing. I still did not feel really close to God or like He had forgiven me. But a few weeks later, I began to have a love for God that I had never felt before. And I felt a love for my family that completely changed the way that I saw them. Praying was the best thing that anybody could have done if they were in my situation.
Do you feel like that? Like you can never overcome your sin and like God does not love you anymore because you have messed up so many times? I felt like that; like I was a failure.
And then I realized that I am a failure, and I am a sinner! Nobody is perfect! If everybody was as perfect as Jesus, then He would have no reason to save us, right? Jesus was the only human who was ever perfect. I can’t be perfect. But I can try. And even when I get angry with my siblings or fail something, He still loves me even more than I could possibly imagine.
It’s the same for everybody. Even when you feel like nobody could love you after you did something or did not do something that you should or should not have done, Jesus still loves you more than you could ever imagine, and He does not care whether or not you are always as perfect as He is.
I’m not saying that we should not even try to do the right thing. No, the Bible clearly says that we should try to become like Jesus and should allow the Holy Spirit to always be changing us and making us less sinful., and we should at least try to become more like God “Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead.” -James 2:17.
But what I am saying is that you are a sinner, and I am a sinner, and you are a failure, and I am a failure. But God is okay with that and he loves you and every other person on this earth more than you can possibly imagine, and when you accept that God’s good and you’re not, and you have that relationship with God, you will feel a love like you have never felt before. And when you do truly love God, and you do have that relationship with him, you will become more and more like him, especially in the way that you treat other people.
So do you want that relationship? And do you realize that God wants that relationship with you? And do you realize that God loves you, even after all you have done? If you do want that, there’s a very easy way to start– by spending time with him. By praying and thinking about how great and powerful he is, and how wonderful it is that he loves and cares for you and for me, even though we are big heap of sinners with an even bigger heap of sin.